I miss you more and more each day.  / Amber (Big Sis )
I sometimes forget you are gone. I just wanna talk to you again. I want you to call me to come over or to give you a ride somewhere. I just want you back. Me, Mom, Anthony and Thomas all want you back. I can't believe we are going through this. You didn't just die, you were murdered and we are having a hard time dealing with this. I want to know who did it, and why they did it. And I want them to pay for it. Which we all know that the justice system is sometimes not fair and just like it is supposed to be. If they were your big bro wouldn't be back in AL for something he did 11 years ago. He has already done his time, probably more time than whoever killed you will get if they get caught. You know we need to know. You know that we are going to push and push until we know who did it. Sometimes I don't care about the why. There was no reason for any body to shoot a gun at a house with a baby in it. None at all. I miss you so much and want to cry, sometimes my eyes water, then I get angry and the tears dry up. It makes me crazy. I can feel you when you are around sometimes, I know I do. Especially when you mess with the lights. You know that is our sign, ever since dad. I know that you are happy with your baby boy. And I know you worry about your baby girl. I always remember what you told me that day. I worry too. She is already going to have problems. She is going to grow up without her mommy. Like you said before, she is going to have to explain to people why she is not the oldest sibling. Now she has to explain that to people and tell them her mommy was murdered so soon after her birthday. She is going to have it hard. I know you come play with Mariah still, thought because she plays in her sleep. She laughs and all, I love to spend time with her. She loves to see us, too. I love you, and miss you so much. I know you know that. --------your Big Sis Close